tot tt OJT has finish mean everything will b fine…. but NO… i still living in a very stressful enviroment…. i am suffocating every single day…. think tt one day i will die… due to stress… i told myself everyday tt i mus have confidence to go thru everyday…. but everyday definitely get scolded… my morale has not been very gd… i try to push myself but yet…. there always someone to bring me all the way down… i feel so painful… i no longer can smile as i wan le… i cant even act to smile… something already wrong in my brain system le… cannot control…. i tolerate all these onli due to one thing… my future… it realli not gd when bcos of ns life in the end affect ur future… sound stupid rite? haiish… Chee seng has never been in such pain n stress b4

pls pardon me if next time, i not as talkative n smiling cheerfully as b4…. i will b more quiet n emotionless… mayb everyday givin a face of stress n nothing else.

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ok.. first i mus say sorry to my close frend… hopefully she not angry with me.. but well … ya… bought her the gift which i find it , it will b quite sweet for her to wear it la….

but think again…. i am a very gd frend tt dun realli wan to make appearance onli hide at ppl back n work…

now my lip is full of balloons plastic smell….eeeee

n hope u enjoy ur birthday party… n like the gift to u….

confinement for the next 2 weeks, all depend on tml le….

SHIT

I AM FREAKING GAINING WEIGHT!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!

hopefully is the muscle weight… oh man…. tt does not sound so gd…. need to do some running le…

anyway…. this week is kinda relax ba… everyday harbour practical … haha… den got our prac test… haiish totally cui-ed!!!

my command n control r like the worst can!!!!

den weekend almost the same… acompany my family for dinner den head to iluma for lanning again… LOL.. was abit crazy this week bcos next week i got guard duty to do on sat.. oh did i said abt i saw my ‘ex’ gf at bugis oso?? i think she dun recongise me anymore ba…. well it ok de la… haha but she seem to b very well…. happy for her…… which mean i onli get to bk out on sunday n mus bk in on sunday again!!!! oh man… wat can b worst man…. shit….

this coming week will b having the exam le… hopefully all will pass then i mus get ready for my OJT le…. wish everything goes well

PS : so wanna have a chat with u… but something realli stop me from pressing the ‘enter’ button after i finish wat i wanna type to u

alrite…. consider ytd as a very sinful day for me ba

went to tampines for dinner at TM mac…. mega properity beef burger with twister fries… damn full, den walk ard den head down to bugis …. yeah bugis again for some lanning. Lanning wasnt as great compare to friday… dunno y… haiish…. nvm… den head on with the zhus to marina barrage for kite flying… was a disappointing kite flying session… dun wanna mention le la… haiish…. den after tt went to eat curry rice…. another sinful foods…. cui-ed like mad… come back…. weight gaining like nobody business -_-|||

ok… decided to blog
this week has been quite a relax week… very fun and relax…y??

bcos this week is PD lesson, we have alot of time to do our stuff and blah blah blah

but the most exciting part was the ‘IMOS got talent’ , i was in a dance performance with the rest of my group…. i mus admin tt we realli did our best… thru we just got a consoulation prize but is gd enough… a very gd effort from avinash.. realli… haha… hopefully i am able to get the video of us dancing tt day n show it to u all… LOL … i think is nice la … haha… n Bedok won the overall champion of imos got talent… WEEEE! BEDOK!! BEDOK !!!!!!

den ytd went to play L4D2 alone… haha… sometimes playing lan alone mus not b tt bad la… i actually enjoyed it to the max… bcos of the players from the public… is fun and exciting when u heard what they talking… LOL…. n somemore got gals… haha… no la…

n just did my running… shld not been running for the week… died-ed… gaining weight somemroe….. gosh.. –_–|||

ok la… nothing much le… ending here…. had a very gd weekdays… hopefully weekend will b abit relax…

the reason i bother abt ur comment is onli bcos tt u r important to me… as a close frend… if not i wun b bothering so much

PS: ya u, pls dun think tt is ur comment, is someone… but dun think is u… onli i noe is hu… so dun any ‘o’ how

mus start opening up my social circle to make more frends…. shall try go for more gathering n blah blah to make more frends from now on…

if i remember correctly…. i got another block leave at last week of april…. mayb thinkin of goin overseas , mayb malaysia for a few couple of days for some getaways man…. just hope for the best tt there is block leave    :  )

ok… by right… at this time i shld not b at home…. either i shld b in camp slping n waiting for RT tml or shld b at outside playin n chilling…. but then again… nvm…

let talk abt things this week ba…

rather 2010 is not a giving me a gd start at all…. just the first week of the year…. i kanna so many things….

1) Misplace some doc tt needed for my boat… luckily my ssg neber punish me…
2) Forget to bring out my appointment card for monday appointment (hopefully haryram will bring out for me)

Got myself pissed off something due to haiish

1) my cabin mate for not being sensative with me…. well they noe wat la
2) got my friday wasted (tt y u seeing me blooging now   :  (  )

but then again…

I got thru all my course…. fire fighting as well as damage control …. it was realli a damn fun n yet physically demanding course… i made quite alot of frends…i got so high tt i dun even recongise myself…. simply out of control…  but i rather drowning than kanna burned sia…. the feeling is like so different…. i think onli navy ppl experience this kind of course so wat u waiting for…. sign on!!! LOL… very fun…. i so wish to share my experience here but better not la… scalli kanna… -_|||| hard to say leh…. will share with u all when meeting but not in written….

n now i am learning some simple dance from nash for the imos got talent…LOL … got talent sia…. shall c how ba… shld b ok… i quite high

n i finally booked out on friday?? bcos i passed my IPPT YEAH!!!!!! so happy tt goin to meet up but haiish…. kite flying ~~ sadded

Alright… almost 2 weeks of holidays gonna over le… ehh… overing soon like tml? ok…time always fly when u r happy….true enough… had been with the zhus gang for like almost every single day…. unbelievable :  ) but then since my holiday gonna over soon le…. mus put time back to ns le… cannot have the holiday mood if not gonna b bad… spent almost like $300 for the past few weeks…. well find it quite worth the while la… happy time n moment in exchange…

well a new year le… haha…. which mean tt i gonna ORD next year…. haha… say like very near like tt sia… -_-|||| but then again…. now mus start planning 3 things….

First : Plan on my university stuff, including opt to another degree… mayb
Second : Plan for a overseas trip, either malaysia or mayb taiwan :  )
Third : Plan on investment, make my money work for me n not i work for money… CAN WIN SINGAPORE SWEEP WILL B A BETTER CHOICE :  )

Planning is a very important stage bcos tt where u have ur goal n work toward it rather than being a NATO….

told my mother tt no worry, i wun find myself a galfrend till i start working which mean got another few years …. haha ehh ard 6years more… after i finished my ns n uni.. haha… n having my frends ard… no matter is her, him ,they ….. i shld b satifated than askin more…

yeah…. shld b stayin at home for today n tml unless needed…. rest my body well to prepare for the upcomin FFDC,  exam oso comin soon… gonna b a busy january  :  )

Last of all, Wishing everyone a happy new 2010 year…. :  )

alright, wednesday le… time fly sia… so fast my leave gonna over soon but then again… i did something tt out of my expectation…

went to cohension with my ndtc fellow… kok keong birthday…

went hangout with ada, sy n jk.

lastly meet up with phyllis to play some catching…. i am quite surprise to myself tt i acutally learn to open up alot in my ns life…. i start to think better and wider…. well i noe wat i am sayin :  )

Alright first day of my leave

came back from camp bcos had to do guard duty on sunday… immediately booked out n head back to hse… take a nap… prepare myself to meet up with delyn for movie… b4 tt went to the library to read up some books while waiting for her arrvial…. n after she arrived…. we decided to borrow some books n haha… surprisingly for a smart gal like her…. dunno how to get something done.. :   ) haha… ok den head down to dte for ticket… no 3D avatar le.. so we just go ahead with avatar without the 3D…. den head to dinner… spicy chicken cutlet curry rice at some taiwan cafe… den she ate her mee suan….  then went into the cinema to watch… well we sat at the very front row of the cinema… i mus said the sound system is like 5/5…. surround sound sia…LOL… but neck pain la… some kids sit beside me were like slpin on the floor.. -_-||| interesting isnt it… ok back to the movie itself…. pretty much ok… not so bad… graphic is nice…but  too draggy… can lesser the story line… n i just broken my record of tahaning my tap for 2hrs and 40 mins…n saw zewin on ground floor…she oso watched the same avatar session as us sia.. L OL… world is big but singapore is small ….

ps: hey delyn, somehow i quite enjoyed myself today… hopefully u enjoyed too…. :   )